Author Notes: This was inspired by some of the comments made by Brad Wright in the chat transcripts. (To see transcript, go here) My impression was that he was being dismissive of the fans, especially MS/DJ fans who are disappointed by his departure. So this bit o' thought started bubbling up in response and eventually had to be written. It's a bit abstract, sarcastic and reflective of only one fan's viewpoint. Feedback is welcome.

I am only a fan.

I am a simple being with specific likes and dislikes.
I watch what I want. If I like it, I keep watching. If I don't, I stop.

I am only a fan

When I like something, I support it. I buy the products that bear its name.
I pay for extra services that allow me to watch more of what I like.
I buy the products that sponser things I like.
I tell my friends what I think and they, in turn, tune in.
Or tune out.

I am only a fan.

When I watch, the show lasts. I have inspired spin offs and sequels and movies.
I have erected websites to celebrate the performers I admire.
I have organized conventions around the world.
I have vaulted my favorite performers into stardom.
And let others fall into obscurity.

When I don't like something, I make it known.
I tell my friends.
I write to those in charge. I tell them what has made me unhappy and what would make me happy again.
I watch for the changes to happen. I am patient.
But only to a point.

I am only a fan.

When I am ignored, I start to fade. I stop buying the products, stop subscribing to services.
I stop watching the spin offs and sequels and movies.
I become lost. I disappear.
And without me, what happens to the show?
Without me, what reason is there to continue performing?
Without me, how will you support yourself?
Without me, do you exist?

I don't know.
After all...

I am only a fan.

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